bleh

I havent posted in forever so i thought i would post.

*post*

ok, i'm done.

I'm Back

Much to my displeasure, I have returned home.

Crap.

For years and years I have been going on the same trip, to the same place, at the same time. And every year it becomes harder and harder to come back. I always have things that I cannot wait to return to, like my cats, my bed, and my shower. (The place at which I stay has a shower with the lowest water pressure possible. It is incredibly hard to rinse my hair.) This year was especially bittersweet. The trip was fun, but i missed Timmy horribly. (Actually, I think my mom missed him more than I did, to tell the truth.) So coming home to him made leaving bearable. Otherwise, I would currently be in a state of shock, possibly still laying face down in my bed. Or on the floor, that's more dramatic.

I wish I could just move there. Or even just stay a few extra days. This year was so short. Now that I'm home, it seems as though I was only there for a day or two.

There is talk of not going next year. Mom says that if we take our trip to Italy, then we won't go on out yearly Trip to Harbor. Now that's rough. I've never been to Italy, and I know it would be fricken AMAZING...but, give up the Harbor trip? The trip I have been taking every year since I was four? I don't think I can make that descision. I'll put that right up there with the "where should I go to college?" descision. I can't think about it right now. And either way I decide, I won't be entirely happy. But maybe one never can.

Buh Bye!

I'm leaving on Tuesday! *the rejoicing continues...*

the D rox my sox

Took my senior pictures today, down in the D, and I had a blast. I get the proofs on Monday. What is it today? Thursday??? I can't wait that long!!! We drove all over, and took pictures at all these different locations and I wore all my sweetest clothes. I waded through fountains and climbed on buildings, and sat down basically in the middle of streets...I also brought Mel along so she could take some and be in some of mine, since we are basically extentions of eachother. Her main shoot is in August, and I get to come along on that one and take even MORE pictures!!! She is getting hers done in Dearborn so we'll have really different backgrounds.

To occupy myself while I am waiting for my proofs, I am crocheting a skirt. I am so very excited about it, I can hardly contain myself. It is my first big crochet project. I have been working on it since around my birthday, and now I am finally almost done!

On Tuesday I am leaveing to go to Harbor Springs for a week, as I do every year for the 4th. I won't miss it here, and there will be only one thing, or person rather, that will keep me from staying there the rest of the summer, or the rest of my life.

yeah

So, it's been a while. So what?

School, or as i like to call it, the required waste-of-time-hell-hole of death, is finally and completely out for summer. Going on two weeks now. Let us take a moment of silent rejoicing.

*silently rejoices*

Sigh. I have quickly sunk into my summer routine, but of course with a few changes from previous summers. Basically my days go as thus:

*stay up reading untill the birds start chirping (4:30) or until the sky goes from black to blue (5:30)
*get some sleep
*wake up no later than 11 (this is where i stray from past summers, where i usually rolled out of bed at around 1)
*stumble down stairs for a bite to eat, then proceed to lay on the couch and finish reading the book i started the night before. (I have read four books so far, at this rate, my stash is going to run out, egads!)
*get a call from someone, or make the call myself to make plans for the night
*get dressed. the day starts at 5 'o clock
*stay out late
*shower, pick out a new book, and the process starts over

Throw in some movies, food, and ice cream, and that is the beggining phase of my summer in a nutshell.

But then the trips start. More on that later.

~~~CHANGE OF SUBJECT~~~

Got my report card today in the mail. They should'nt waste the postage, becuase it isn't like I care about grades. I don't study, I don't try, and I don't care. I want to care sometimes...I am just inncapable of caring about a label that society chooses to stamp on people's heads. I live in an age where a persons worth is measured by GPA as an adolescent and by monetary value as an adult. On top of that, you get judged by the way you look. I absolutly depise this system. But I play the game. You have to play the game in order to acheive the status where people finally leave you alone just enough so you can do what you want with your life. But first you have to play the game. The higher-education-I-have-a-purpose-in-life game. Pass the classes. Play the sports. Know the right people. So I play. As minimally as I can, but still I play. Hoping like anything that society progresses as fast as it has in the last few decades and people can finally forget about the man-made drama, and just live. Just wake up when you want to, put on the clothes that make you FEEL good, talk and be with the people you like and just live and be like God wanted us to in the first place. Shed all the smog and pollution we have created and just eat and live...crap. I'm starting to sound to much like a hippy. Need to avoid that. Hippies don't shower...I, personally, am very fond of being clean. It's just a quirk of mine I guess...

so lets review...

Ok, Josh has very kindly brought the fact that my blog is boring to my attention:

Sexual Healy 08: your blog bores me immensely

Thank you, Josh.

So lets go over the past three weeks or so...

I have:

lost one boyfriend
gained a different one 2 weeks later
I am still confused about that second one...
I have got several people really pissed at me
somehow i dont really care about that...
i'm sick...AGAIN
I have decided that school is completely pointless now,
since i have taken most of my finals and now only have 2 real classes
I have been spending alot of time in the dot
track is almost over...thank the lord
i put up a bunch of new pics on myspace (i know i'm lame, dont care!)
i am almost out of ben and jerry's ice cream... :-(
went to bob jo's the other day and got a black cow, which was interesting
stole josh's tennis racket out of his car
I am making plans to have some of my boys over for dinner

so that is almost everything in a nutshell...of course i could elaborate on it, but i might offend people. and we musnt have that now!

My head hurts from being sick. A little while ago I was feeling better, but then someone had to leave me and I felt worse. Then I ate a banana. Go me.

So I really need summer to start now. It is just beginning to smell like summer, but of course I can't enjoy it because I am sick again and I can't smell a thing. I hate school. And I feel really sorry for those who say that the high school years are the best years of their lives. Poor boring pathetic souls. If high school is going to be the best years of my life, then kill me now please.

I am pretty very extremely happy with said new boyfriend. It was really a surprise and I don't care if we offend anyone, because that is certainly not my intent in this relationship. People can say what they want, but they can't ruin or make me feel guilty for my happiness. This so far has been completely different than anything else, and I just love that. Anything different is good, to quote one of my favorite movies, Groundhog Day.

Mina Hungry

I don't feel like making anything to eat. Oh well...


ANYWAYS....prom is tomorrow, and I am actually kinda excited for it. My dress is amazing, my shoes are amazing, my earrings rock...I can't wait to get dressed up...!


That is about all.